Forever Fifteen

I get to this point every now and then...where I have to let the demons out and hate doing so because I always piss someone off. I don't care today. I will not apologize for this post. If you are offended by a real blog post - then go back to reading the prefabricated shit you prefer. This is who I am...this is what I do.

For the rest of the readers I didn't lose (lol) if you look deep in your heart you will find a time in your youth that changed you. Dramatically. That's exactly what this poem is about.

I offer no remorse for my feelings and will not deal with drama.

Forever Fifteen

I'm still 15 years old
Heart broken and distressed
fresh wound

I'm the same girl
with the same heart
salty tears

My 15 year young soul
has long been lost.
too many pills

Pills to remember
how to forget-
the breaking inside

Before years of attempted suicide
and the meds that followed
I was whole

Somewhere inside I'm 15
inspired by joy and tragedy-
but ever motionless

When the pills don't work
I'm a hollow shell

I crawl inside to be 15
to contemplate another try-
gas, water or gun.

Pick your poison, love

I always find my way out of Hell
to the realities of life

The thought is ever inside.

First mixed media art in months.

Vintage Hair For a Vintage Girl

Hello one and all! I'm in a great mood today! I was listed on Art Journaling Today's page for my mixed media journal piece! I wanted to say thank you to all of my friends on Facebook for the encouraging words. They are greatly appreciated, and help to keep the drive going!

In case you missed it yesterday...Now through Saturday I am having a giveaway of one of my favorite 5x7! You can view the details here. Thus far I've only had a handful of entries. I would like to continue offering these sort of things, but if I don't have enough people interested there is no point.

Last night I talked myself into being brave and quite possibly stupid. I've wanted to try a vintage 1930's or 1940's hair style for a while (the main reason I let my hair grow out). After viewing a video on Youtube using foam rollers I gave it a shot....aaaaand this is the segway to today's photos. ;)

Get ready everyone, it's a bumpy ride!

The "before" photo..yes, scary I know!

The next day. Man can my hair hold a curl!

Another view

It was a great experience and something I look forward to doing again soon. You can view the video I followed here. She has some amazing tutorials...definitely on my favorite's list!

I think that just about covers everything for today...

A preview for tomorrow: Photographs of a new necklace I made today! 

<3

Mika.

Mixed Media Number Two

Sunday May 15, 2011.  This is a very exciting post for me. Why? you ask. I am finally sharing a piece of mixed media I am proud of. It took about 3 hours from start to finish, thus I didn't post it last night. 

I have to thank Kelley at http://artjournaling.blogspot.com/ for giving me the inspiration and the drive to finally branch out into mixed media and art journaling for myself. She is simply amazing. If you haven't already, head over to her blog and get lost in the pages. I visit nearly daily and always find something different, something inspiring. Thanks again Kelley. :)

Without further adieu,

 

 

I think this is the start of something beautiful. :)

<3

Mika.